My Testimony

Hi. My name is Mitchel Palmer. I am the editor, author and owner of Jesus For Today. This is my testimony.

My life has not always been the best. At times it was definitely better than others, but there are also those times that I faked it just as much as everyone else around me.

To start off, I want to say one thing, I love my parents, brothers and now my own family very much. I am grateful for the love and support that they have all shown me in return. Also, I want to thank everyone else that has supported my family and I through our worst of times. Finally, I am very grateful for all of my friends that I can call family.

I have not always been what most would consider a “good” christian. I would more than likely be one though that Jesus would be with, and has been with for the greater part of my life, a sinner. I mean we all are, but I have felt like the worst of them all. Not only because I knew better, but because I chose to ignore my problems hoping they would go away.

I grew up in a pretty good-sized church in Indianapolis, Indiana. I was involved with the church in almost every way that I could, and I loved it. My friends weren’t really the kids that I would play with at school, but the family that I gained from being at church. To this day we still talk from time to time and have our laughs. I was just starting my sixth grade year of school when my family moved for a few brief months to Memphis, Tennessee.

Later that year, we moved to Branson, Missouri and found a good church where we got involved in. Yet, I would say that after moving to Branson, my spiritual life significantly grew less and less every day until I finally leveled off at a comfortable “when I need God” mentality. By eighth grade, I had already struggled with all the now “normal” things that young teenagers sadly struggle with. I began to watch porn, I developed an ego, I became selfish and more and more inwardly thinking of what I wanted.  I refused to heed the warnings that God put before me. By highschool, I was now drinking, my porn problem bled into my personal relationships with girlfriends and also how I talked. I was very prideful in myself, and already being a very independent individual my pride only grew. I lied a lot. Not that I needed to or had to, but because I didn’t want anyone to see that I was really just hurting. I could put up a good front for anyone that needed to see it, and I thought that I had everyone fooled. After highschool and after college I got married… quickly, and because I still had so many unresolved issues in my life that I chose to ignore they began to take from my marriage in a lot of ways.

But God…………

You see, though all of these things happened in my life there is yet a God who is greater than all of my failures. He is the one who gives us our testimony so that others may come to know Him like we do.

But there is still one thing that I left out… one very important detail to my testimony that needs to be heard by so many out there that are facing the same things that I have.

Unfortunately for me porn was not something that I stumbled upon. In fact, it was introduced to me by the one man in my life that no one expected. (Let me just clarify that this is not any of my family members) No, this master manipulator began to twist my mind into the things he wanted for me when I was in eighth grade. Though it started with porn, it was not the only thing. By high school, he introduced me to alcohol, and by the summer of sophomore year I was manipulated into being molested by him many different times.

But God…

One day at work my boss, who fortunately for me was my father-in-law, called the store while I was working. I had probably been playing games on the computer for longer than I initially realized and he asked me what I was doing. My response was the only thing that I could come up with on the spot, “Nothing.” Of course he knew better and I was caught in my lie by the cameras in the store. We had a coming to Jesus moment, that we all have at some point or another in our lives. Later I went home and put on some worship music and just began to cry out to God for more of a hunger to work. I knew that I needed it. I asked Him for peace for all of the hurt in my life that I had gone through. God’s response to me is one that changed my life. Not to my surprise He told me that I needed to tell my already suspecting wife the truth. You see a couple of months prior to this, she confronted me and asked me if I had ever been molested by this man. Of course my words said no, but the rest of my being screamed yes. A couple of weeks went by and she asked again, same thing happened. I knew that I needed to tell her the truth if I wanted the peace that God had promised me. So I did…

It has not been the easiest road since that night, but definitely the best possible road I could have taken. God has done so many things in our lives since then that night.

I encourage you that if you are struggling with not having any peace in your life to first, pray that God would reveal to you what is causing you to not have peace. Secondly I would urge you to pray that God would give you the strength to be able to stand up to whatever it may be in your life that has been weighing you down.

If you haven’t accepted Jesus into your heart as your Lord and savior, do so right now. Watch and see all that He would do in your life. If you no longer have any joy, or are tired of just being tired; give it all to Jesus who already bore it all on the cross so that you would not have to. Draw closer to Him every day. Have a deeper relationship with Christ and watch how He will change your life.

If you need prayer, or feel like sharing your testimony, you can either comment below or email  Jesus For Today at jesus4.2day@gmail.com. I hope that my testimony will help you with yours.

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Blessings!